“Better/Man”

Every adventure helps to enhance a better version of me. We never fail to meet and engage new people along the way. I was reminded that listening to the stories of others lives helps merge you into their realities. We connect by the questions we ask and not so much by the unprompted statements we broadcast. I find myself reflecting clearer after I’ve immersed my reality into the perspectives of those around me. I suppose one needs to have this understanding to push beyond the limits of the egos confinement’s. Engage, embrace, and enjoy appears to be the path I’ve discovered through all of my travels.  

 

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We can only grow by pushing our boundaries beyond what feels comfortable. We can only truly evaluate ourselves through the perspectives of those around us. We can only realize peace by settling these two paradigms. Reaching out to others through your attention to their reflections of what’s in their hearts and on their minds. Often times it’s the story they wear and not the story they tell that’s weighing on them. Embracing them with your comforting touch absent of the judgement they fear. 

 

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I suppose that if you’re going to give a shit, you should be ready to make a difference in this world. All too often, the motivation comes from attaining something for yourself. It doesn’t feel quite as bad, if you share a little piece with your family, but generally that is secondary in the hierarchy of incentives for us. All those people piled up at the bottom of the socioeconomic pyramid hunger to have stuff in their lives too, numbing the sting of not having a clear path to prosperity.

 

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Hope is what’s left for those who can’t see their imagination come to life. The view through your feelings is clouded with the distortion of the effects of your emotional entrapment. Just as the planets bend the light with their gravity, ones thoughts get skewed by those undeniable feelings. Peace and comfort only exist when you can precisely calculate the arc of that bend to identify where things will land for you.  

 

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  #love 

“What’s/Important”

  “What’s most important to you for you to feel fulfilled with your life...?” 

 

Connection to other people, that you care about their well being as you do your very own, should be high on this hiarchy of fulfillment. You owe it to them as well as yourself to work towards being the best version of yourself, but that alone is a hollow existence in and of itself. Caring for others above yourself doesn’t support being your best self, so forget pretending that attitude gives you a gold star outside your name. I’m here today to discuss getting over the minutia of the petty bullshit. There are enough critical decisions to make within the complexity of a modern life, so elevating minor ones to a higher status only diminishes the overall quality of the brief period of time we all get. I’m currently schlepping across Italy on another adventure to feed my sense of wonder and experience what life has to offer, not what happens to come my way. Through these adventures, I see people of varying cultures being themselves in their everyday life. It’s easy to judge or condemn what at first glance doesn’t align with what you know about your life, but after a while you can begin to dissect the components of the human condition, and extract nuggets of insight to improve yourself, and your perspective. There’s no such thing as a perfect society, and cheering about such things  is fucking mental retardation for the most part. Appreciation for what adds value to the quality of what truly matters, and dismissing the minutia is the process. Finding the discipline to focus on the process and repeat it regularly is the challenge. Attaining the wisdom through experience is the end game for lifting ones self to a higher level of fulfillment. It’s not about income, status, or wealth. My brother and sister and I have created more for our life’s than all our previous ancestry combined, and we never identify that. We’re all grateful for the foundation that we were given by their experiences, and the capacity for kindness and compassion they instilled in us. You will never find fulfillment until you find gratitude for having a life to work with. 

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  “Love conquers all...until, you realize it’s only a slice of a much larger pie of life” 

Love is important to maintaining a full life, and it’s rated extremely high by most individuals. Love is evolutionarily biological to sustainable relationships for rearing offspring, but requires work and adjustments when maintaining its part in fulfilling life. Love encompasses all the relationships that we acquire across a lifetime, and ebbs and flows with the circumstances of the times. It feels so amazing, and like the end of the world. Offering yourself up to love another person unconditionally is one of the keys to a fulfilling life. If you only love those people in your life because they love you back, you’re missing the fucking point. Love them because they mean something to you in a way that allows you to be yourself with them around. If they judge you, are they really who you want to offer your love too? Love is a complicated proposition at best. It can make us feel so alive, and can make us want to die in a split second. Love requires management of our supporting conditions to participate, but not of those we share it with. The sad part is, even with the best of all circumstances perfectly aligned, it’s not a complete life. Relying solely on love for fulfillment is extremely selfish and shallow. If all you have to offer humanity is your love, you are pretty worthless to the advancement of our species, as well as creating processes to lift those around you. Hungry, sick, and uneducated people need more than just love. They need action! If love doesn’t motivate beneficial behavior, it’s not serving anyone but you. 

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Being connected, managing love’s impulsive responses, what’s going on here? Nearly everything we do as individuals based upon assumptions that everyone around us is chasing the same dream is a fucking bullshit lie! Having more doesn’t make you happy. Being wealthy is not a remedy to loneliness. The most amazing love you could ever imagine won’t make you complete. Life is way more complex than that! The best explanation of life I’ve ever heard came from a Bloomberg radio interview with a young man acknowledging his father’s advice. “Life is hard, and only momentarily interrupted with moments of brilliance...” Life has to mean something to you beyond what it simply feels like! You have to mean something to others beyond just what you can do for them. We all have to strive for fulfillment and enlightenment to what truly matters to the connection of everyone. We have to drop the ego centric notion of power and control for the harmony of togetherness. The notion of scarcity has no relevance in abundance and love. We believe only because we hope to belong, and we fail to question ourselves to the ideas of what’s really important...

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  #love 

“Man/Made”

We wonder through this life hoping there’s enchanted immortality in an idealistic afterlife, constantly tucking away the things we don’t want to bring to bare as we push into the uncertainty of our conscious reality. Ultimately, we face the unpacking of life’s baggage to reveal with the clarity of hindsight, we fucked a lot of opportunities up along the way. All of man’s problems are a result of our collective consciousness, and the resulting behavior. The earth and universe have their moments of transformation and resulting tribulations, but our species is to blame for every single issue surrounding our modernity. Social, cultural, political, ideological conflict only exists within our perception of reality. For 300,000 years, our story has been evolving to what is now the present day. This portrayal of the accumulation of our understanding for how and why we exist remains anchored to the unproven mythical speculations of ancestors we deemed as prophetic, even though there’s not a shred of physical evidence to confirm this as reality. Nevertheless, I’m not here to write about the way ideological misgivings balloon into mythical misconceptions. I want to further my observations about the emotional entrapment gripping our species and more importantly, how do we break that grip. I only have to look at my personal perspective to get started. I was a very emotional child, full of love and elation over the things that made me feel good. Disappointments were a part of that, but they never felt like they were overwhelming. No one ever explained to me that this thing we call heartache was a normal part of the human experience. It was something much different than disappointment, and felt like it would never go away. I realized it’s stranglehold after my father came home drunk one night, and woke me up when I was fourteen. Him coming home drunk after spending his time drinking away from my mother and his children wasn’t something new. It was a generational type behavior for men of his era. They were children of a very authoritarian generation of fathers themselves. This lack of engagement for the emotional complexity of adolescence has helped to cast the die for all generations. Dad felt trapped by the expectations of a wife, who he felt detached from within his own complexity. He had met someone that listened to his plight, and come to the conclusion it was time to leave his family because of his detachment from mom. At fourteen and being his eldest child, he decided I was to be the new man of the house in his absence. My dad was leaving, and what little responsibility he supported around the family from a functional perspective was now on my shoulders. Oh, there’s a catch to this dysfunctional strategy of his. He hasn’t informed mom of his plans, so I couldn’t tell anyone of my situation. I was supposed to suppress any emotional entanglement with my reaction to cover his cowardice for unveiling his relief to his emotional turmoil. Selfish, absolutely, but this was how he was conditioned to cope with his own emotional entanglement from his life. What’s lost in this generational extrapolation of emotional suppression is the way we at crucial junctures of human development ignore the understanding of the adolescent individuals of how their own emotional entanglement works. Not a single concern for how I would deal with the abandonment from my father at a time my hormonal transition from childhood to early adulthood was overwhelming to say the least. My story is unique in its presence to me, but not isolated in the context for how we as a species fail at this critical development in the lives of our children. That failure to untangle our emotional complexity at the individual level until we are dysfunctional adults is the real problem. Adolescents don’t possess the capacity to effectively do it alone, and peer involvement mostly dilutes the situation. The dysfunctional parent only replicates the slightly enhanced experience of their own adolescence, and focused improvements are mostly a product of luck. People are groomed to figure out their own emotional entanglement and live within whatever results that process renders. This hasn’t changed much for most of modern times since our development of language and art. Remember, the period I’m referencing is the last 10,000 years, where written language can be used to gauge emotional expression. The process is evolving, but at Darwinian speed and is only recently within the last couple of centuries been adequately studied. Human beings possess so much more capacity than we currently exhibit, it’s going to take some time to learn how the best way to unlock it will be.

 

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The news out of New Zealand is tragic in obvious ways, but at a deeper level far beyond the loss of lives as well. The manifesto from this perpetrator identifies a disturbing message of psychotic nationalism supported by racism. This diverts this writing in a bit of an unexpected direction, but also ties in the overall message of my initial thoughts. Race, culture, nationalism, and religious ideology are all bound by a common thread. Their identification and support is a human concept. Varying degrees of melatonin in the skin of humans does not distinguish special differentiation, but is leveraged through cultural dynamics as fuel for ignorance to the biology supporting one’s understanding. Homo Sapiens vary along a wide range of physical variations, such as height, weight, hair, eyes, and the likes. Skin color has been extracted from this list for a social agenda. Getting individuals to support this preposterous notion by incentivizing their following is the Darwinian dilemma in all of this. Our social propensity has served our species well over time. Teaching and division of labor and tasks across a smaller group allowed for us to proliferate this planet. Language allowed for those groups to expand greatly in size. Technology amplified that capacity to unheard of boundaries, and social media allowed any fool to become believable. At the individual level, the true variation lies within the capacity to process our understanding from all this communication capacity. The agenda once again becomes the focal point, and the unaware followers not properly scrutinizing their sensory input behave in detrimental ways. Donald Trump’s name was cited in this manifesto for his support of nationalism and agenda to stop immigration. Only in the human consciousness does migration of species cause social conflict. The only reason it’s seen the way it’s portrayed is because it’s supported by an agenda. Not biology, chemistry, or physics, just ignorance to understanding.  

 

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Most of what the human race has contrived as acceptable norms around this planet were originally put into place as a symbol to something greater than a single life. No one person or even group of people have a comprehensive handle on this complexity of our species. We have yet to achieve in the hundreds of thousands of years of being aware and connected a tranquil harmony of everyone. As advanced as we’ve become in some aspects, we struggle to rise above the challenges in beliefs and behaviors. Hope can only be identified as not becoming extinct in one’s own lifetime, and trying to stave off self inflicted extinction in the upcoming lifetimes of our offspring and of theirs as well. The story of precisely how we arrived here is still widely debated in spite of the strong evidence to support the scientific version. That gap in acceptance transcends into social ideology as well as the individual interpretation for one’s existence. We more often than not attempt to trade personal tranquility for being right, and the argument carries the burden of confusion of purpose. We seek individual validation for our consciousness, while ignoring what’s in the best interest of all. Our children become reflections of that same dynamic, and thus they too repeat the cycle only to find themselves at the same crossroads as ourselves. Consciousness can only be gratifying by being present within one’s reality. There’s no credibility necessary, just acceptance and awareness of how complicated life is outside of that paradigm. Your emotional state will run your life if you give it the keys, or it can gratify every moment when you realize their functional dynamic. 

 

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The world is filled with beauty and wonder...don’t let fear or ignorance stop you from realizing it! 

 

 

 

 

  #thoughts