...how often do we use this phrase to justify our situation?  Diminishing the significance of something to avoid the emotional conflict it creates is...well, cowardice at face value. Self proclaimed to be a person of principle and upstanding to ones beliefs and values is deteriorated to a certain extent every time we make these exceptions though. Yet,  taking this to the other extreme is toxic in and of itself in that we wrap boundaries around our capacity to grow. All of this points to a much deeper truth, we are all prisoners to our impulses. Ignore them, and they haunt you with their subconscious craving. Give them the reigns, and you stir your life into a constant state of turmoil. Balancing between the two is the never ending story of being a modern day human being. I’m no different than everyone else when it comes to this struggle. The tiny bit of guilt following this impulse subservience isn’t enough to keep us awake at night, but cumulatively they do wear down our decision making skills to the point where we overlook the real trade offs we are addressing. Just as when dealing with others, a series of false truths can quickly become an avalanche of denial. This is precisely why values and beliefs anchor our perceptions. 



  “...$20 Burger😳” 

 Now, let’s take a look at the landscape of humanity around us today. Values and principles are terms shoveled around by those with enough abundance to stave off worry of survival. The majority of the humans living on earth at this very moment compromise honor for need pretty regularly. It’s not a terrible thing in reality, but a necessary moral dilemma in fact. I would venture to say, that those same people are only called to weigh their options a small percentage of the time. The large majority of the decisions facing them can be evaluated absent of the emotional conflict. The point I’m driving here is this, building your life around social norms as though they are absolutes is short sighted to the spectrum of the big picture. Rules provide texture to our expectations for others. “If everyone does what they’re supposed to do, order is served up” Let you in on a secret...that shit is naive as fuck! How much emphasis we place on something definitely drives its context in our lives. Because something is valuable to us doesn’t make it a treasure. 



  “...add artichokes & jalapeño’s” 


Once again, life is all about getting over something. Yourself mostly, but we only have so many moments to work through. Defining the intensity of each and every aspect of a life is way too much deliberation to choke down. I’m not condoning just ignoring everything either. I’m saying build your morals around honesty with yourself first and foremost. Shrinking the gap between the accountability you hold yourself to versus the standards you hold others to. I believe it’s vital to accepting others with any true meaning. The difference in existing and thriving. One can only truly know their perspective, and applying that to anyone else is ridiculous at best. Just as assuming the series of little lies we stuff down our own faces to avoid being honest with ourselves does not convey to doing likewise to others, especially if we care about them. Here in this detail we can grasp the magnitude of how this cycle works. “Not such a big deal to me, must not be a big deal to so in so” That’s the amplifier that launches the dicey ride, and the slippery slope is a long ass horrible time. Whatever the specific circumstances are the golden rule is always applicable. 








Generalizations and oversimplification are the tools we often use to paint the picture of our reality. Because it’s so common across the cultural variations of humanity, we’ve grown to not only accept this form of delusion, but we most often expect it from those around us. Being the person crying bullshit leaves you to the scrutiny of everyone else’s unified emotional distortion. That feeling of being in the majority of a consensus far outweighs the isolation of knowing better. Understanding too much is a lonely fucking existence. Falling prey to the manipulation of an ideological agenda is perfectly fine as long as you are not all by yourself. This form of social policing is how we learn to fit in with the herd so to speak. How information strikes us is every bit as important as it’s validity. Emotional temperament provides the valence for dictating the path we guide our understanding along. This is why the discovery of that consensus as being misguided leads to some form of emotional panic. You see, prevailing through everything we know is how we feel. Feeling accepted for following this herd is much more comforting than being right for thinking independently. Suggesting that more understanding is necessary to properly evaluate a situation puts one at risk of being identified as nonconformist. Too many of these, and you’re soon ignored for your participation. Goddamnit, no one wants to be in this situation. The purpose of the group is often overshadowed by belonging to something bigger than a single solitary life. There’s never been a single tyrant, who single handedly managed to overwhelm an entire society alone. Hell, Napoleon Bonaparte wasn’t big enough to fight a small band of children, let alone a group of grown men. Yet, his social influence created the empire we know from history. Not all circumstances have the capacity to achieve this type of social evolution, but far too many of the modern issues of today are deeply rooted in the perpetuation of special interests of the few, because the many are too afraid to question the supporting supposition. 


Social capacity has given our species the throne to all other known forms of life. The words derived from the symbols developed to share ourselves with each other is unique in its complexity. The availability to deliver intentions to others, even when we don’t maintain an intimate relationship with them is unique to being human. This expression of what lives within our conscious being fills our life with purpose and gratification. The diversity of what that means to each of us is as diverse as we all are as individuals. With all of this power, and knowing full well the capacity contained within it, why do we still struggle to make better use of it? When it comes to building out a life that lifts those around us, and empathizes their suffering, and casts a shadow of hope, we constantly circle back to our own inability to cope with the conversation within ourselves. All that evolutionary drive to connect and communicate with those around us presently, as well as those we encounter outside of today, yet captured in the context of the isolation as an individual, with the realization of mortality. This very human condition is also the human dilemma. It would appear that very few of us fully come to terms with this dilemma, and the vast majority of us ponder it to our final days. Obviously this is the core of why we bend everything we encounter to something applicable to our version of what we can emotionally digest. Rationalization takes precedence over understanding when it comes to broadening our capacity to be a better version of ourselves. Often times accepting what we know takes a backseat to managing the more powerful emotional response life elicits. This internal quest to calm the noise within our consciousness has been present as far back as 70,000 years as best we can tell. Much earlier than this, homo erectus ornated shells and similar objects with designs, obviously attempting some form of expression. The desire to express ourselves has been present for most of our evolution away from the other primates. Could this be the mutation giving our species the preference over all other forms of life on earth, or is this the spirit we identify as God within the notion of immortality. Regardless of what degree you can identify and transform this expression into creativity, there lies the hunger to define a purpose and a reason for why each of us were born. Maybe the fear of being left out is built into our DNA, and our innate tendency to attach our interpretation or version is a safety mechanism exposed by shame for not understanding something. Recognizing we’re alone and not knowing any peace with that could be the driver for this entire circumstance. We are born to struggle like all other life, only we are the ones able to enhance that existence by molding the moments of our reality. Shaping the circumstances, and influencing the outcome. We all have the potential, only few realize that...










offset or compare the value of (one thing) with another.


The only reason it’s possible for life to exist on earth or anywhere else is the delicate balance of the essential elements for sustaining life. All life forms we’re aware of live within the confines of some type of balanced lifestyle between their individual existence and the propagation of their species. Homo Sapiens struggle mightily with this essential dynamic. We tend to confuse our will to survive with this notion of free will. Possessing the capacity to choose doesn’t relieve us from maintaining this balance. The human balancing act falls along the line between capturing as many moments as possible, and putting them off because time feels so damned abundant to us. Tomorrow only exists to measure the value of today. Filling ones life with stories of true meaning far outweighs the accumulation of stuff to numb the regret that comes with watching life tick away. 


This paradigm of balance delivers humanity a grand dilemma though. If we don’t prove we’re intelligent enough to stop our own extinction, none of this will matter. The social issues befalling the species atop all others on this planet, will ultimately spell the collapse of the essential elements necessary for our existence. How you feel about your life won’t replace the devastating effects brought about by our ill fated ignorance to the larger problems. “Hot, Flat, and Crowded” is the title to Thomas Friedman’s 2008 cry to anyone who cared to read it for recognizing the forces at work, and the stakes of ignoring them. Now, a decade later we face an even more expanded set of circumstances with little to no improvement. Some 68 million humans migrated last year away from the political strife besieging their homelands. Scientists continue to fumble around without much success at creating functional nuclear fusion to relieve the climate deterioration, yet nothing is being derived to tackle the social struggles facing humanity. A standard of care for children beyond infancy, to allow the development of more adults with the full range of cognitive capacity necessary to embrace a truly connected species. The expansion of the inequalities that have plagued humanity from the dawn of civilization are destined to doom our existence, if we don’t adjust the perspectives of more individuals. All the while, technological advancements are continually delivering increasingly more access to consumption of emotionally charged and intellectually numbing cognitive rubbage. No wonder given the emotional conductivity the average person represents. 


The problems are complex, and the solution isn’t an instant fix. We need a better generation established and cultivated to provide subsequent replication for all the future generations. Humans not so distorted by the affects of culture and ideology, that the species is the focus. Gender, race, and discrimination fall to the wayside in lieu of greater good for everyone. Not just the lucky ones born into beneficial circumstantial advantages. Giving everyone a chance to flourish, and accepting the limits on our species and our impact on that delicate balance that allows us to exist in the first place. Free from anxiety about our differences, and centered around the commonality of what we all share. The distortion from our past won’t light the way. This vision requires a totally uniquely different set of lenses. Prying people away from their comfort provided by centuries of ill informed complacency is the challenge we all must face.  Subduing the natural tendencies of procreation absent of how to provide for the unregulated selection of who has children.  (imagine the political shit show associated with that)  



Any attempt at leveling outcomes is and always will be an exercise in futility. There are too many complex components involved in the sequence of events contributing to any outcome. Individual effort can only be measured by capacity to perform. Trying hard with little to no success falls on the participants. The only person that can verify or dispute your best effort is yourself. Physical and cognitive constraints between individuals differentiates outcomes greatly. Equality doesn’t truly exist in this realm. Flourishing as an individual though, can be levelized in the sense that, everyone can do their best to live their best without fear or anxiety of being judged for any shortcomings. We also should express more restraint in glorifying the perception of success. Athletes achieve great accomplishment from a very narrow perspective, yet nearly all fail to contribute to meaningful social or cultural enriching. 


It it would appear as though I’ve stumbled upon a subject worthy of much more deliberation and scrutiny. I’ve grown weary of publishing content simply to amuse the fancy of people I’m not acutely connected with. Let’s just see where this vein runs to😎