“You/Think”

The loneliness of only being yourself…

…terrifies the fuck out of us

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Nobody has this figured out, it’s anyone’s guess as to the why we’re here. Every generation churns out yet another layer of anxiety over the reason behind our why. The feeling of being alive is intoxicating, yet subversively paranoid simultaneously. Who else hears our thoughts, surely they echo across time.

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Desire poised just beneath the surface of fear. Luring our spirit into its web of ecstasy and exotic fulfillment. Never relenting it’s constant reminder of the darkness within all of us. Only the strands of guilt hold us back from over indulgence. We can’t help ourselves for wanting, we can’t forgive ourselves for accepting.

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As long as we don’t feel threatened, we feel we must know something special. Our vision of our existence is how everything fits together for us. Surely everyone else feels the same way about themselves. Suffering is a poor choice, cheer yourself up so no one feels badly about themselves. Anger will get you through the night.

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Peace is the constant dream, if only we could locate its calm. Surely there are moments of this mythical clarity, but suffering to find them seems to be the barrier of resistance. Tolerance for the suffering is the weight of that feeling for existence. Life’s tide rolls across our memories, washing clean the residual effects. Leaving behind nothing but guilt for not trying harder.

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Wasting away all those moments of being present in the suffering and not breathing in the essence of the space between the passing seconds. For its not fear of dying, it’s forgetting that our time falls within those gaps of anguish over the why. It’s love we seek, and how that feels. Reassuring our entanglement over how we arrived at another moment, and the weight lingers still.

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You think because that’s all the mind knows to do. You feel because that’s how we deal with our thoughts. You live when you train the will to accept. Love is the harmony of realization of this transformation. Once you figure that part out, there’s no space for anything else. The fear, anxiety, and suffering subside for the tranquility of compassion. The weight of living has been lifted…

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#love #life #peace #acceptance #compassioN

“Dutch/Treat”

We’re here in Amsterdam, soaking up the sights, sounds, and smells of our latest adventure. Super clean and approachable city. Transit system that permeates every nook and cranny of this sub-sea level metropolis. I’ve never seen so many bicycles in all my life😳 Outside of the unusual oppressive heat, its off to another adventurous day about the birthplace of capitalism. 

 

 

 “  ...Dutch woman + Turkish man = Amazing food”     

 “...Dutch woman + Turkish man = Amazing food”

 

   “...made from scratch fresh ingredients”     

 “...made from scratch fresh ingredients”

 

   “...menu changes daily with the chef’s Mediterranean imagination”     

 “...menu changes daily with the chef’s Mediterranean imagination”

 

   “...sunset on the canal 10:00 p.m.”                    #amsterdam    

 “...sunset on the canal 10:00 p.m.”

 

   

  #amsterdam